Sissy and I bought a new 3D LED HD TV and 3D Blu-Ray player today - amazing stuff, now I can watch all of my stuff on the big tele and not strain my eyes too much :) although I will freeze to death during the winter and die from dehydration in summer staying up all nights watching tv in the living room LOL

JIZZ IN MY PANTS!!!

I just finished watching the rest of season 4 of True Blood. WTF.
Tara - dead.
Jesus - dead.
Sam - maybe dead.
Rene showing up - wtf he's dead already.
Pam crying - NOT ON!
and finally...
NAN - DEAD?

She was one of the awesomest girl vamps besides Pam and Jess (and the Queen - she was too awesome)!!! GEEEEZ~

Was kinda freaky, the whole Halloween thing. I have to say that True Blood delivered in scaring this season! TOP STUFF!

And Ryan Kwanten no longer leaves anything to the imagination. SERIOUSLY!!!

ANYWAY...

One Piece on the new tele looks... FUCKING. AMAZING.

Gonna watch it all day long now. =] happy happy.

AND ROFL - KPie said that the 2ne1 girls are all cross-dressers. xD
My little misinformed KPie xD <3

Anyway, I'm out.
No Eric till next year...

BUT DEXTER IS COMING BACK IN TWO WEEKS YAYNESSGOLDSPARKLYLULZ :D

ONCE AGAIN, YAY NEW TV. Welcome to the family :)

It's getting to that moment already...
Am I expecting too much?
Will One Piece deliver?

I'm scared...

But for now... some injured eye candy lol.

OOOOH ACE YOU SEXY LOLLIPOP!


p.s. Hancock and Luffy are so LOL =] <3
(episode 423)

Finally finished watching Infernal Affairs III last night and I have to say that it was a little dismantled for me, as in it lacked that certain glue that sticks it all together. Maybe it was because I watched it in two parts because I had to leave to go to work... but the ending didn't seem as strong for me, unlike the other two endings.

The beauty of Infernal Affairs III that The Departed didn't have, however, was the insanity of Andy Lau's character, Ming. Albeit I would have loved to have seen more of that 'gradual' process of him going insane, it was a good concept to put into the story. I would have loved to see Matt Damon go crazy too, but in order for that to work, it will take another 2 hours, and it just wouldn't happen. But TONY LEUNG is a really amazing actor. Andy Lau could have portrayed and developed on the 'crazy' more :)

"Moles don't take holidays." - WIN!

On other news, I am getting closer and closer into catching up with the realtime weekly publication of One Piece. Noooo~~~ It's just too good, I can't stop watching lol and they are getting into epic battle of Saboady Archipelago now, I'm afraid I won't be able to stop watching till the recent episode. CRAP!

But to win everyone's hearts, for tonight, here is a CHOPPERMAN screencap which I do not own, of course. :D

What do you do when you get beaten down, over and over again?
Do you cry?
Do you stand tall?
Do you eventually become fearless?
Do you eventually start hating God?

There have been times when I have felt this feeling... but I know that how you're feeling right now doesn't even compare.
Heavy.
Painful.
Lethal.
I know you want to just slip away but I'm not going to let you.
Because I'm here.
Because we are here.
Because we love you.

God is not punishing you.
He also knows that you're a good person.
You're kind.
You're wonderful.
You're amazing beyond words.
You're pure at heart.
You're my sister.

I love you sissy.
And may this tough time make us even stronger as His children.

You're my bestfriend.
Don't ever forget that.

I forgot to mention that I learned so many things about Asian cinema these past few days, and I learned a lot about Chinese/Hongky culture (thanks Cat!) through watching Infernal Affairs and Infernal Affairs II.

I have always wanted to watch it, ever since The Departed came out and I got so obsessed with it (who wouldn't? Leo, Matt D, Whalberg, not to mention NICHOLSON!) but a part of me refused to watch it, because I thought it would be just the same, and I'm not really the type that likes to compare adaptations and re-makes.

Infernal Affairs gets my TWO THUMBS UP! I can't wait to get Part III off Cat on Tuesday and savour every scene. I particularly liked Infernal Affairs II because it uncovers the concepts that the West wouldn't be so familiar with about Chinese Triads and Asian gangs. I have to say that besides the traditional stuff that they portray in the movie, the notion of gangs and mafia 'families' isn't so foreign to me. Firstly, I grew up in a country where those things just simply and naturally exist and secondly, I've seen The Godfather LOL.

I loved Tony Leung in the first film (and I know I will love him just as much on the third one), and Francis Ng and Shawn Yue in the prequel. These guys did me proud in showing me true Triad-like depiction. What can I do? I'm a sucker for these kinds of action movies.

p.s. I just learned this week that I've seen Tony Leung in other movies before, such as Lust, Caution, which is the one on the avatar for this entry.
p.p.s. Don't come hatin' on me, but I really don't like Edison Chen - as an actor AND as a human being. Sleaze.

So I went over DJ's house today to pick up le guitar as my anniversary gift for le Cat and while waiting for Missus DJ, we started talking about where we are at our lives at this point. So we talked about friends, studying (not so much because this bores the hell out of him), jobs, and then we started talking about our relationships. Not too long after, as a pattern with all my friends, we talk about boyfriends/girlfriends then we talk about marriage and when "you," "no YOU" would get married, then eventually, the inevitable... babies.

According to DJ he's all ready to propose to Missus DJ by the end of this year, and that he really wants a Dragon baby... and that, yes, they already have the names all picked out for at least the first five kids they are going to have. Firstly, I gasped and told him that *I* also want a Dragon baby, but it would be impossible since le Cat and I are at such a young phase with our relationship. So he made a joke about how I probably won't be able to have a kid, if I wanted a Dragon baby, until I'm 36.

FAIL.

Additionally, I don't have my kids' names figured out, unlike DJ... "LUCAS JADEN."

And lastly, I only want two kids. A mansion and all from Cat would be LOVELY but only when the time comes that he buys me a mansion is the time when I would actually think about having five kids!

But for now... these are my kids.

I thought that this same week last year was the best week ever.
BOY WAS I WRONG!
This week has been so epic that words just can't describe it enough.

It was so nice to finally catch up with friends that actually treasure you - missing you guys more now that we are apart again.

It was so nice to have the whole week to lay back and just... dream.

It was so nice, having spent this entire week with my one and only Cat.
Happy first anniversary, babe :)
You are my rock, my bestest friend, and everything I wouldn't trade in this world.
As I've said, you made me feel so so sooo special this week :)
And sorry for having delays with your presents lol.
But I do hope you like those polaroids LOL! xD

That's it for me.
Back to reality now.

Hope everything and everybody remains strong. <3

The past week have been physically, mentally and emotionally exhausting~ not just for me, but also for my family.

Some things have been said and some things are not allowed to be discussed anywhere else, EVER. And so, I find comfort in livejournal tonight to mark this as my official entry about this week that really changed how I perceive someone that I thought was important in my life.

Dear Jazz,

You had a 'cousin' once, who lived with your Mum for ten years. Everything was great between her and your family, until a month ago when your Mum saw a stash of pills inside her bag, and your Mum was so hurt that she confronted your cousin about this. Your cousin then admitted that she has been married (civil wedding) for a year and a half to a guy who is currently a contract worker in Qatar. She begged for your mum's forgiveness, even reached out here to your dad, to your sister, and then to you. And your dad and your sister were willing to forgive her, granted that she doesn't live in your house with your mum anymore. Your mum, on the other hand, was so mad that she kicked your cousin out because she felt so betrayed and so disrespected, as an elderly and as a standing Mum.

Weeks passed and then your cousin started posting unpleasant things on facebook about your mum. At first, you, your sister and your brother-in-law ignored this and thought that she was probably just upset. More and more posts came up and then you all just knew that she was targeting Mum, but you still didn't do anything about it.

She posted things like - Bitterness is next to ugliness (So you're saying that my mum is bitter? Therefore she has an ugly personality?), "Has anybody ever made a mistake where people made them feel like they are never good enough?", "Vengeance will come to those who can't understand and accept the mistakes that they've done and who continue to do wrong unto others."... and so on.

One morning your sister woke you up, out of her rage, and told you that she was going to send her a really angry message on facebook. It was long and full of substance - no lies, no swear words, just telling her that in all honesty, if you are asking for someone's forgiveness, wouldn't you want to keep waiting for that forgiveness and not turn around all of a sudden and say bad things about that person who you are asking to bestow you their forgiveness? So your sister just told your cousin to shut up and wait for it, don't post any more things and that my Mum has suffered enough - not having anybody defend her side since the entire family is here in Australia and she is there by herself.

"It's time you grow up," - my sister said.

She replied that night, very angry, saying things like - she served us for many years, 24/7, and that my sister should shut up because she doesn't know anything; that she, my cousin, has missed so many opportunities because she thought about OUR family, and not herself and that she did it out of love; that she was probably the only person who wiped someone's ass and didn't go anywhere in life.

You're still angry right now so you can't write everything down... but all you need to remember is that she made your family look like you used her when in fact, your whole family supported her throughout her university life - allowance, tuition, books, laptop, clothes, water, electricity, when she was unemployed, my sister's infamous "$40 flipflops" which caused her her 2hr wage, and many other things.

I don't want to say anymore...

I can't because it all hurts too much still and everything still makes you very very angry.

You wrote a note on facebook, too, out of your rage and rapture.

So this is all I'm saying now:
No matter what happens... do NOT under any circumstances, forget what happened this week for the rest of your life. It is way too important to stand your ground to defend your family against lies and deceit.
You know what she did.
Remember it.
She's not welcome in your family anymore.

It's really a shame because you thought that her being a part of the family would be forever.
But this is her real colour.
Don't change yours. This is your colour. Forever unforgetful of others' harsh words.

-Yourself

Let this be the letter that I wrote to myself tonight that I will read in the future and which will remind me why I should never trust her ever again. For myself and my family.

On other news...
Physically ill - "under the weather" according to Lily from HIMYM. =)
But getting there... getting better.
The cure is more rice, and no more bacon deluxe burger from hungry jacks. And no m+m's crispy's for a little while even if the big share bags are on sale.

Talking about chocolate makes me miss Miss E.G. =)

I miss everyone =(

I miss my Mummy the most.
I love you Mum.
I wish I was there to defend you and ward off all of those that try to bring you down.
I'm there with you in spirit. Full of heart and fire.

I love you.

Today I realised just how I can take things for granted.

I was closing a door today and caught my index finger in the process of doing so.

From that moment on till now, my index finger can't feel anything and at the same time, it hurts really badly on the inside. I know the pain will pass... but the time that I'm watching slip away is gargantuan... it's as if I'm living in the turtle world. They live a long time yet they have to go through everyday in the pace that they do.

Another lazy day today, just slept and ate and slept and watched movies in between. We rewatched Cars and I fell asleep near the end. Then we moved on to Catch Me If You Can - definitely one of my favourite movies of all time. Spielberg got that one right :)

On another note... we're so obsessed with Fringe right now, it's ridiculous... I can't get that 1985-version opening credits out of my head xD

Hope everybody's seen pretty butterflies today :)

xo.jazz

Call me... nostalgic.

But the other night I couldn't sleep because memories of my past came gushing in, like an unanticipated flood leaving you swept away and stuck on the ground, unable to make your move.

I don't know exactly what triggered it. Maybe it's because the days are drawing near. Maybe it's because it's that time of the month. Or maybe it's just that I really do want to look back and see how far I have come.

Without hesitation, said thought-vomit was typed on my phone's notepad. I still haven't looked at it since then so I'm uncertain if I even made any sense. All I remember was that they were in chronological order, written as they happened, when they happened, and what I felt in each and every moment.

And for a moment, I cried. That was all it was though, a moment. Not a second longer.

I really must have come a long way.

To so many people, they might think that I've already forgotten... or maybe they have already forgotten... but not me.
I remember.
I always remember.

And I love remembering.
Through remembering, I manage to keep myself sane, and I manage to make every moment count, and apparently, I also make all the moments I remember sound as if they were very important moments. So that's... most of them. And all of them are important.

Because there is not a single memory not worth keeping.
They are all special.
They are all mine.

I hope this eidetic memory will never go away...